Why am I writing about comparison?
I’ve always been weird and very very sensitive, since a little child, no worries, I’ve always been happy to be kind of different. Now I know I’m an HSP (with sensitive sensory processing) and proud of it. But that’s another story.
Going back to comparison, I’ve always done everything I could to avoid any comparison, competition or something nearly similar.
I just didn’t care…no interest in any sport with numbers, loosers or winners. No need to throw a ball in a basket or to kick it somewhere specific. No need to measure up in speed, jumping or whatever. No need to excel at school or to compare votes.
Too sorry for the loosers, too sorry to be one of the loosers…weird….isn’t it? I didn’t want to loose and I didn’t want to win.
Anecdote:
10 years old, during the “sports day” I’ve been forced to participate in some kind of race, “Run-they said- just run with your schoolmates, to see who is the fastest”.
I started running, trying to find a place where to hide myself, maybe they wouldn’t have notice it.
Yes, there’s a bush over there, I can stay hidden for a while, I turned my head to see if behind me there was someone that could see me and say I was cheating in some way. Then I saw them, some schoolmates with difficulties in running, for a lot of different reasons they couldn’t run easily, they were struggling, they were not happy to run either.
I stopped, I waited for them, I took their hands, me in the middle. Hands in hands we finished the race, together, happily, no loosers, only laughs from our hearts!
Then I remember the applause and the fair play medal, created just for me in the last second, but why? I couldn’t see the reason, I just followed my heart, different from others, but natural for me.
Now that I know myself more in depth, even helped by my Quantum Human Design TM studies, it makes much more sense. But this is another story.
I wanted to create beauty, with my creativity and imagination, very often with “an internal non verbal creative flow”, here I am as a “Time Bender”, quoting my Teacher Karen Curry Parker©.
I choose dance. But wait, I chose dance even because there weren’t numbers, winners or loosers. I cared and care about dance, a lot. It’s a universal language, no words needed. It subjective and objective, discipline and freedom. I’m movement. Delicacy. Beauty created with my body, heart and mind. Rhythm and melody.
And I’ve always felt it, my dedication, my unique comparison style, with myself and others.
I have my own way to face comparisons in life and dance. If I don’t care, I don’t compare. Comparing is caring. Admire and learn, help and teach.
I work as a dance educator, a teacher, a mentor. To be a role model is my attitude!
Yes, because when I teach dance I’m not talking about just steps but I’m giving my students tools for their life.
Sometimes I see these little girls so competitive, that long to be the first, the best, in the front row as placement in a choreography, and sometimes they remind me but sometimes they are really different.
Am I teaching and modeling how to face comparison in a healthy way? Here I am researching deeper for them, respecting their unicity, their talent, giving them the tools to face their unique adventure that is life.
I love different perspectives and points of view…
Coming soon my book about comparison…
